It has been 53 years since we planted the beautiful field for our wedding and I helped you pick your flowers for your bouquet, they were wonderful! Our squash never could turn out right, but I loved walking in that field as the tomatoes ripened! Tears always come fresh this time of year, the new life that springs from this blessed earth only reminds me of our life together and the way you always made it seem like spring-even in wintry times! I love you more today then I did the first time we met, though my memory is fading, I remember how radiant you looked! I think that our Father must have known the intensity of our love, He planned for it to take an eternity of being with you! I am anxious to put this flesh aside and be clothed in His splendor, perhaps I will look as good as you :)
I am jealous at times that our good God asked you to come to Him, leaving me behind. I know that He loves having you by His side, and He knew that you were anxious to meet our little Jill. I cannot wait to hold you both, oh, what joy awaits me! I imagine her to have your eyes, and my wit. I often let my thoughts wander as I rock on my favorite rocker, I imagine she dances with you and laughs with a sweet and gay rhythm that just about harmonizes with yours!
Robert and our grandchildren are all well, they continue to grow in stature and popularity, I seem to loose the priority as sports and friends need their attention. Our parents raised us to understand the importance of family, I thought we taught Robert this too. It is odd to be able to look back and realize the mistakes that I made in my parenting. I was too hard and too soft, what balance I should have held to, I know not...but there must have been a better way. I am glad that you were here with me then, I know that you were certainly my balance, you knew when I needed that look and when I needed the encouragement. Thank you for that, dear. You were and I know will continue to be, such a great wife!! God molded you well for His Son, I pray He praises you for your sweet spirit and humble work ethic. Oh, Eloise, I love you!
Yesterday I took a walk around town and listened as young married folk spoke to one another, I was so saddened at their casual glances at each other or quick responses. I know that there were times when I should have listened before I spoke, times I let my voice raise with frustration, but I never remember a time when you disrespected me in public the way that these young women were with their husbands today, and in front of their children! I was shocked. I am thankful for the mentor that you were while on this earth to so many young women in our church. I still hear stories of your sweet words of encouragement that meant so much to these now learning what exactly you were talking about! You had wisdom beyond your years, even when we were first married and we were young and first timers! You seemed to have had much more training than I, it was with graceful ease that you became my wife, I treasured you, darling, and I still do!
It was such a pleasure to see your timidity turn into playful temptation. The notes I would find in my briefcase made me blush on more than one occasion, it was wonderful! The long lunch breaks were well spent! I am numb some nights as I lay close to your pillow, trying to smell any last perfume that could possibly be saturated among my tears. The blessing our Lord allowed us to experience together, can never be put into words, I am thankful, oh so thankful for the time we shared and will continue to share...someday! Until then, my beloved!
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